You have been self-medicating to soothe your troubles and avoid further heartache.
There are strong emotions and self-misconceptions that you have been purposely avoiding. To numb the emotional pain, you have been using food, alcohol, drugs, or some other form of distraction.
You have been trying to fill an emotional void, but the fulfillment gained is only temporary and the cycle repeats. Emotional baggage does not go away without contemplation and inner healing. It’s time to break the repetitive cycle and unearth the core issues triggering this behavior. Seek external support if you need professional guidance or additional help.