Your insecurities and need for external validation are aligning you with relationships that do not support you.
When you feel you are not worthy of love and respect nor good enough, you will align with people who mirror your views. You may find that you constantly need to prove yourself, outdo others, or seek reassurance that you are making the right life choices.
Do not seek acceptance from your relationships. Find love and acceptance within so that you start to align with people who value and support you. Break the cycle of troubled relationships by shifting your mindset. Define your needs, recognize your worth, and allow the cycles of change to bring forth positive transformation.